Inner Turmoil

I seem to be having some conflicting desires, for instance the desire to be well dressed by shopping at moderate-to-expensive stores like Dillard’s or Macy’s versus the desire to only spend my money on things that are truly valuable and will not hurt someone else in the making (fair trade, u.s. made, ecologically sound, etc.). I am also conflicted about wealth and money. In my head and my heart I KNOW that these are not the same thing. I KNOW that I am already rich beyond compare but I still crave more money and the things it can buy (again in conflict with my inner conscientious purchaser) — my desire for a safe, clean planet is conflicting with my desire for a fast, hot car — my desire for a fair-trade, fair-labor kind of world conflicts with my desire for a cheap, $7 fashion store — my desire for more stuff conflicts with my desire for a simpler lifestyle — my desire to be a sex-pot drunken party girl conflicts with my desire for self-respect and inner peace. What are my values? What are my principles? What is most important to me?

The reason I’m having such a hard time deciding between people and animals is because I still believe there should be a difference between them. Cruelty is cruelty is cruelty. It doesn’t matter if it’s people or animals. There is no division or separation. Being vegan is a means to an end and will probably be the only way I am involved in that particular battle. What is more important than stopping cruelty to animals? Domestic labor issues, national health care, world-wide human rights violations, environmental preservation (unbridled consumerism/disposability), global economies, health and nutrition of Americans. What makes you mad enough to write to someone about it? Apparently, Krispy Kreme’s use of trans fat in their doughnuts makes me mad enough to complain to the company.

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